Monday, November 29, 2010

song of the moment

I've had a little more free time than normal now that school is over (but I won't know my grades till Wednesday UGH) and I found a song I forgot about that really fits how I felt/feel about someone who in a way prevented me from finishing school when I could of. I let him become a priority in my life when school and my career should have been the number one thing on my mind.

Stupid Boy - Keith Urban

Well she was precious like a flower

She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
Stupid boy...you can't fence that in
Stupid boy...it's like holdin' back the wind

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy
Stupid boy

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
Oh...

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy

Oh you always had to be right
And now you've lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice She Hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy
Oh, I'm the same old, same old stupid boy

It took a while for her to figure out she could run but when she did she was long gone, Long gone

Oh she's gone
She's long gone
Yeah she is
Yeah, ohhh

Oh, nobody's ever gonna love me like she Loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please just let her know I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry baby
Yeah, im down on my knees
She's never comin' back to meeeeeee

I've obviously since moved on with my life, but this really hit me today when I heard this song on the radio today after not hearing it for years. Tears filled up my eyes and I remembered how I felt all those years ago when everything fell apart. But when I did figure out that in the long run I would be better off, I ran just as fast as I could away from it all. I doubt that he still thinks of me fondly, and I'll never know that for sure. I know that he has moved on and doesn't need/want me back in his life and that is great. I'm the happiest I've been since I was 18. There is a whole world out there waiting for me and the stupid boy is gone.

What is your song of the moment?

2 comments:

Suzie Que said...

It's amazing how memory is triggered and we are flooded with those old emotions. I'm glad you're happy now. Not sure that I believe in fate, etc, but sometimes things really do work out perfectly. My new favorite song is 'Home' by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros...oh, and 'Funeral' by Band of Horses. And congratulations again! School is OVER!!!!

Steph S. said...

I have those moments sometimes, too. I often think about what could've been, and am so glad it ISN'T. But you live and learn :) The boys I dated all taught me valuable lessons - of course I didn't learn these until long after the break up, as i matured adn what not. BOYS. :)

Have a great week, hun!