Sunday, September 16, 2012

whirlwind weekend

As I wrote the other day, I came back from my work trip to the shock of seeing how much my grandfathers health had gone down hill.  Things have been really hard ever since and I spent a good deal of my weekend helping out my family.

I had Thursday and Friday off work, I had hoped to accomplish a lot for my wedding and though I did get a few things done, I knew there were other things that were more important.  Thursday night I spent some quality time with Andrew since we hadn't been together for five days.  Friday morning I ran my errands, did the grocery shopping and headed to my grandparents to spend the night.  I was so worried that something bad would happen while I was there, but thankfully it didn't.  He finally slept through the night without becoming restless and hallucinating.

Saturday morning I woke up and headed home to get ready for my bachelorette party, which was just what I needed after a stressful week away and a stressful weekend with my family.  We had a pretty low-key night, went out to dinner and to one bar where they have dueling pianos and you can request songs to be played.  

When we got to Big Bang Piano bar

A little later in the evening

I have always been good at ruining a photo!

I feel so blessed to have such wonderful friends supporting me through this important time in my life.  I am sad that some of my friends couldn't make it last night, but all in all it was a good time.

Today I'm finishing up some wedding stuff and taking a break around 4:15pm to watch the Steelers game!  One more week till I'm a Mrs.!!!!!!!!

Friday, September 14, 2012

I'm back - 8 days till "I do"

My trip to DC was a whirlwind to say the least of over 12 hour work days, lack of sleep and maybe a few nights of fun.  I was so exhausted by the end of the week that I could hardly keep it together.  Right now, I'm just trying not to think about the mistakes that I made and focus on the fact that I am home.  

But when I got home, things were not sunshine and roses (though getting to hug and kiss Andrew and getting to rub my dogs belly was pretty awesome) because just before I left my grandpa was put into hospice care.  He's been battling lung cancer since April of 2011 and is starting to loose his battle.  In a matter of just 10 days since I had seen him last he changed so much and it was really hard to see him yesterday though I know I needed to be there.  My brother and parents have been staying at the house every night just in case something happens, he is very restless and oftentimes confused and exhibiting most of the symptoms of someone at the end of their life.

When the hospice social worker came to visit us at my grandparents house yesterday it was really hard to keep things together.  This is supposed to be a happy time in my life, but its so hard to focus on the happiness when there is so much suffering and sadness.  I only got a few of my wedding related errands done yesterday because it was more important to be with my family.

So on that note, things are going to be really hard over these next 8 days.  This morning I am conquering the pile of laundry from my trip, running my usual weekend errands and getting some wedding errands done as well.  Tonight, I'll go visit with my grandpa again and tomorrow is my bachelorette party.  

Thoughts, prayers and encouragement are so appreciated from my readers as my family and I try to make sense of this sad situation. 

8 more days till I do!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

So What Wednesday


It's time for another edition of So What Wednesday and boy do I have A LOT to say this week!

So What.....

~ If I've been wearing a band-aid on my forehead for the last three days, thanks car trunk for putting a gash between my eyes three weeks before my wedding!!!

~ If I've had several emotional meltdowns this week, um hello I'm going out of town for work for 5 days and my wedding is less than three weeks away!

~ If I'm more excited about my honeymoon than anything else right now because I just need some quiet relaxation.

~ If I haven't been sticking to working out and being healthy (okay maybe I shouldn't say so what to that, but its been really tough lately)

~ If I'm obsessed with having a sun roof on my car, now if it would just stay cool and not so humid in Ohio I would love it even more.

~If I have a another new addiction, French Press Coffee....amazing!!!!!!!

What are you saying So What to this week?!

Monday, September 3, 2012

19 more days....AHHHH!!!

This weekend was all about the wedding to do list, and maybe a little bit of time for relaxation.  So what did I get done (for those who are interested) well, here you go!

  1. Got all of my favor bags made FINALLY!
  2. Deadheaded and weeded the wedding flowers we grew again at Andrews parents farm, probably the first time we need to do this.
  3. Put all of the broaches on wire for my broach bouquet, now my mom will arrange them into the bouquet since it took 6 hours to do the first part......long day to say the least.  It was a good thing we had Kahlua and coffee as well as two good friends helping to make it through the afternoon.
  4. My grandma finished the flower crowns that the flower girls will be wearing for the wedding.
  5. I made two of the four batches of cookies I'm making for the wedding and got them in my deep freeze, after I spent a good deal of time cleaning my deep freeze (new hated household task).
  6. Got my bridesmaids gifts in the mail.
  7. Got the ties for the groomsmen and for Andrew.
  8. Deligated the task of making our congratulations sign for the reception.
  9. Counted all of the RSVP's and realized that only about a dozen people haven't sent theirs back, but they are all people my mom can contact while I'm on my work trip.  
  10. Bought trays for the cookies and looked for colorful papers for the cupcakes only to find that the party store and Joann's were sold out of both silver and pink......oh well!
The whole weekend wasn't super productive or wonderful though, my grandpa had a bad few days and when I arrived at my mom's this morning I slammed the trunk of my car between my eyes and cut my nose open.  I really hope it heals by the wedding and that I don't have a scar.  I'm leaving for work for five days on Friday and before I go I need to try and make a few more batches of cookies and get some things organized. 

I had a bit of an emotional breakdown today between slicing my face open (exaggeration of course), seeing my grandpa having a bad day and thinking about EVERYTHING that needs to get done....I never thought a wedding would be this stressful and sometimes its really hard to take a deep breath and realize that everything will work itself out!

I may be a little MIA this week and next but I'll try to post when I can!