I think I'm finally "setting the sun" on my negative attitude, which would explain the above photo (which I took on our evening fishing trip a few weekends ago). After multiple tufts and arguments with my mom and Andrew about my attitude, many nights crying on the way home from work and sleepless nights, I've decided I need to check my attitude at the door.
So what exactly was bothering me? Well, it was a lot of things, my job isn't exactly anything I'm passionate about and I know I'm capable of a lot more. I feel like we just can't seem to get ahead financially and its in part because of my job/student loans. I'm worried about how we'll pay for our wedding since my family can't help much due to my dad loosing his job almost two years ago. The job situation is just something I have to deal with till something better comes along, I'm not going to get my hopes up about every single job interview or phone screening at work anymore.
Money also isn't going to be such a big worry. I've lived without much for a long time so I should be used to this by now. I think its harder now that we have a house and I want it to be nice. Our couch is literally falling apart and if it does we might sit on lawn chairs till we can afford something. Andrew hates to finance things that aren't a house or a car and the last thing we need is another bill.
We also joined our local YMCA this week and working out again has given me a better attitude. I sleep better and have more energy during the day. I've cut out a lot of bad foods and decided that once on the weekends we'll splurge. I'm tired of feeling down about my body and my weight.
I know its going to take a lot to keep my positive attitude going but for once I'm going to make it happen!