I haven't posted about my weight loss much because it's currently the "elephant in the room." We haven't been super strict about following our diet, I haven't been working out because every ounce of my free time is spent doing homework, meeting with my tutor and for a few hours each night I get to spend time with Andrew. I haven't been cooking horrible things at home and I've been trying to cut back on our carbs, but when we aren't at home we both tend to cheat. Andrew goes out for meals with people at work and we went out of town this weekend meaning that we snacked a lot and ate out a lot.
I really want to loose this weight, but sometimes it seems that I talk myself out of it. Its not that I want to weight this much or not fit into those size 10 or even 8 jeans again, I just feel like I'll never get there. I spend more time crying about it than I do actually doing something about it. When I see a picture of myself I get sick and become tempted to un-tag it on facebook or delete it all together.
I'm not sure what is wrong with me, why I'm so unmotivated is a total mystery. Sometimes I don't feel like Andrew is very supportive. Instead of being encouraging, he makes little comments that to me sound like insults and I get annoyed and shut him out. When I get depressed I want to eat and I don't know how to break myself out of that cycle. I've always been the "skinny girl" but not anymore. I just need to figure out how to get myself back to that place.
I'm not happy with how I look and I literally feel like I've fallen off the wagon which was on the road to weight loss. I know that might sound corny or dumb but it's true. Anyone have suggestions? Maybe I just need a push in the right direction or a little encouragement from my blog friends :)