Haiku Friday - Black Friday Madness

Stuck at work today
At least I don't work retail
I've been there, done that

No crazy women
Busting the door down for fleece
Fabric line so long

I don't miss Joann's
On Black Friday, man it sucked
Office work, better.

I was thinking this morning about how I used to work retail about 3 years ago on Black Friday. I don't ever want to have to do that again, even at Joann Fabrics the people were insane, fighting over fabric, breaking the door down (literally, they took it off the track to get inside), and just being all around nuts. I always did the 5am till noon shift, just so I could get the hell of that day over with early.

But this year I have a good old office job and I don't have to worry about people like that. Hardly anyone is here today, I have a throbbing headache, which I am praying will go away soon and I am going to try to leave early. Someone brought Panera bagels for everyone so that was nice. Now I don't have to go get lunch!

Also - next week is crazy for me. I am going to Cleveland (again) for work Tuesday and Wednesday, Thursday I have a Dr. appointment late in the afternoon and then Saturday is my best friends son's first birthday!

Well I guess I should try to do something productive - after I have some more coffee!

Giving thanks

At dinner last night my brother and I were discussing something dumb to do on Thanksgiving. Normally my grandparents are not here and we have a really laid back dinner at our house. We decided to dress up as pilgrims and Indians and go over to my grandparents house, as a joke. Since my mom is a preschool teacher she has oodles of ways that we can make crazy hats and outfits out of paper and other craft items.....in case you don't already know this, my family is goofy/quirky/just plain odd sometimes....haha. Last year for Xmas my dad dressed up like cousin Eddy from Christmas Vacation. Here is a photo of my crazy family.

In the midst of all this we started talking about making the "hand turkey" and writing on the fingers what you are thankful for. I think a list of 5 things is pretty limited so here are my 10 things I am thankful for:

1. My family - They have been there for me through every up and down and I love them. They always make me smile and always know the right thing to say.
2. My friends - We've had our ups and downs, some of them have moved away, some I've lost touch with but no matter what they have shaped me and they have shaped my life.
3. The opportunity to go to college - Okay so I messed up along the way, screwed off and failed some classes but college has really helped me grow as a person and I am so glad I decided to go to Otterbein.
4. My pets - Yeah, yeah, but you have to understand I love my kitties. Webster has grown up with me and she is now 20 years old. Last year we lost one of our cats, Priscilla, and I miss her soooo much and we also lost our golden retriever Pete who was wonderful and the most loving dog I have ever been around.
5. My health - I feel pretty fortunate to be healthy and to have that going for me at my age. I know there are plenty of people out there who struggle with their health (I have a good friend who has type 2 diabetes and another that is immune deficient).
6. My job - Again, there are a lot of people who are not fortunate enough to have jobs right now and that is a horrible place to be in. Although it took me 3 months to find this job it was worth it and I am learning a great deal here each day.
7. Andrew - Okay so we have really had our ups and downs but he has taught me a lot about life. Since we met I've felt like a more complete person and I've learned that a relationship is not all about expensive gifts and going out every night, its about enjoying one another and letting yourself totally open up to someone.
8. My God-daughters - Abigale just turned 5 a few weeks ago and Natasha turned 3 this summer. Those little girls are the light of my life, I just wish I had more time to spend with them!
9. My extended family - Granparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Second Cousins, they are all so wonderful and I have a special relationship with each of them that I would not trade for anything in the world.
10. My faith - I've gotten back in touch with my more religious side over the past year and it feels good. I'm not going around stuffing it down anyones throat but I am glad to be in touch with my faith again.

So what is everyone else thankful for?? (Sorry this blog is super long)

At least its a 4-day work week

Well, the weekend was good....I'm glad that things ended up working out the way they did when Andrew and I hung out. We chilled again on Saturday, did some Christmas shopping and had pizza/TV night and it was really nice. We've always had this joke about the song "Patience" by Guns and Roses, it was playing the day that I was dying to tell him I loved him way back in May and he wanted me to wait until our one year anniversary, which technically would be February of next year. So on the way home both Friday and Saturday that song played.....I'm thinking it might be some sort of sign, but then again I could be wrong.

Said, woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar, make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience

Those are just a few of the lyrics in case you've never heard that song before. It makes sense in this whole crazy mess that I am in right now. I'm still not sure what to think or how to feel, but I know one thing. For the first time in my life I feel like me, maybe even a better me. When Andrew and I were apart I didn't function right, it was like part of me was missing. I've never felt like that before, which leads me to believe that no matter what has gone on, we are meant to be together. But for now, we do need some patience and we do need to just take it slow and let the pieces fall back together.

Call me crazy, but I know in my heart that this is for the best no matter what has gone on this past month and a few odd days.

On a chilly Friday night....

So I got a text from Andrew yesterday afternoon asking me to dinner last night when he got off work.....he said he didn't want to go home so I said I'd meet up with him, no big deal I thought, what can it hurt.

We had the best time....it almost felt like our first date all over again....we went to Buffalo Wings and Rings (one of our fave places to eat) and had a nice dinner and a few beers. Then we went to Meijer so he could get snacks for work and home (his parents are on a vegan diet....and he is not a vegan...lol). He held my hand in the store, I felt so dorky getting giggly about it, it was laid back and fun. Nothing felt awkward and it was just a feeling that I can't explain, like I felt whole again. We sat in the car and talked for a while, he couldn't stop staring at me, it was a look I've never seen in his eyes. I could just tell he missed me that things weren't the same....so here I am again, not sure how to feel.

We kissed and then we both cried, trying to hide it from one another bc we have both been so miserable. So we're back at square one and I'm okay with that, a fresh start and no more of me getting my hopes up too much and no more wondering what is going to happen.

Its time for me to start taking things one day and one step at a time!

Haiku Friday

So tired this week
Can't seem to catch up on sleep
Dark under my eyes

Had a cold all week
Could not breathe from my plugged nose
Feeling better now

Coffee is my friend
Gets me through a day at work
Just one more cup please!!

Well I don't have much to say this week, I am honestly so exhausted! I had a cold all week which kept me from sleeping normally since I could not breathe out of my nose. It seems to be better today, which is good. Its still freezing at my work and the weather is below normal cold for this time of year in Ohio. I cannot wait to just sleep in for a few hours tomorrow!!!!! At work I have a few major projects going on right now which have been causing me some stress, I have a final to finish this weekend for my bio class and then I am officially on break!

Well I should probably get to work now, although I have no motivation and I still feel really tired. Hope that everyone has a good weekend and GO BUCKS!!!!!