Haiku Friday - Oh what a week

Life has been hectic
but things have been super good
just need some more sleep.

I posted a tweet
and joined Twitter this week too.
One more site to share.

Two rooms left in the
house to be painted and cleaned.
Its such a relief!

Yes, you did read that right I joined twitter! I said I wasn't going to but, we'll see how I like it and it might not last for long. I'm giving it two weeks, since I am also on facebook, myspace and here and that is a lot to keep up on! If you'd like to follow me on twitter let me know and I'll send you my link. I can't decide if I want to put it on here yet or not.....

Oh and click the button at the top of the post for more Haikus and see my post below for updated photos of the house!

Hope that everyone has a good weekend :)

Yet another catch-up blog....

I know I said I wouldn't do this, but I did, I have been really bad about updating this blog....I will try to be better but no promises till I kinda get my life back! But I do have pictures, if that makes up for my absence!!

Here is the most recent big project at the house, painting the kitchen!

Before

After
And the lovely eating area!
Right now we are working on the bathroom (just need to put pulls on the drawers/install new faucet/hang towel bars), landscaping and office, so I will have more photos by the weekend or end of the week if all goes well! There are also gutters on the garage now and birds can't come in through the soffet anymore either. Grass is growing again where the yard got dug up as well!

Before
And after the grass was planted and the yard flattened back out

David and Erica also had the baby on Thursday, July 2nd - Isabelle Elaine, she was 7lbs 14oz and 21 3/4 inches long. She's got blonde hair with a funny swirl on the top of her head and she's quite a big, strong baby. She had a touch of jaundice but seems to be doing great now! Poor Erica was in labor for 27 hours but now mommy, daddy and baby are home and adjusting to being a family!

Haiku Friday - Ease my mind

I think I need some
Prozac, Zoloft something good.
I feel too anxious.

The fighting just sucks
I am so sick of feeling
like a ball of nerves.

I hope tonight goes
as well as I have dreamed it
and that this all stops.

I just want to be
happy in my life, dear Lord.
Please make that happen.

Dinner with the folks is tonight.......please see previous post for more information.......I don't want to type it all again......

Argumentative

*WARNING - this blog may end up being rather long*

Lately things have been nothing short of a roller coaster that has filled me with so many emotions, both good and bad. My mother (surprise) has been the main instigator of these arguments. I am so emotionally drained from the fighting and constant lack of respect she has toward me. I hardly sleep anymore and I'm always in a bad mood and its affecting every aspect of my life. I just want her to be happy for me and I want her to understand that I know within MY heart that I am making the right decision. She says that I've disrespected her, that I don't know how to take care of myself (mostly in aspects like washing my face and brushing my teeth - if you've ever been at my house around 9pm you'd know what I am talking about), that all Andrew and I are doing is "playing house" and that I can't keep promises I made to her. I am just so fed up and done with the arguments. On Thursday, Andrew and I are having dinner with my parents, to just sit down and talk about everything. I hope and pray that my dad does most of the talking because I can't take much more of the negative attitude my mother has.

I keep asking God if I am being punished for wanting to live with Andrew before we are married, but I don't think that is what's going on. My mom just wants me to stay, she can't come to grips with any of this and she feels that by fighting I won't want to go. But instead she is pushing me away, more and more with each mean stare or snippy phone call. My heart really can't take much more of this and I can feel myself falling apart. I've neglected so much because of these fights, not returning friends phone calls, not sleeping and not fulfilling other things that I need to do right now. So to the people that probably think I am ignoring them, I am so sorry and things will get back to normal soon!

I am so tired of having this dramatic family life, but I don't know how to be anything else. I find myself fighting with Andrew now too for no reason and its tearing me apart. I can't allow this to keep affecting my life in such a huge way. I'm tired of everyone telling me to "grow a backbone" or "just leave" because no one understands that it is just not that easy......no matter what you might think both of those options would make things worse. I am the oldest child, and a girl, so things aren't going be easy on me and they never have been before. I hate that I really only write about this in my blog, instead of about happy things.

I need a lot of prayer right now and I need to find some strength deep within me and finally break free of my mom. I wish that she would stop blaming our relationship on the fact that she didn't have a mother growing up because I think she looks at that as a way out. I pray that things go well on Thursday and that this "final dinner" will take a lot of weight off of my shoulders. I can't go on like this much longer.

Summer Days make Bessie Feel Fine :)

Summer Photo Shoot with Bessie